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not the same again.

Sat, 08 Nov 2008 06:51:11 GMT

i miss you very much Tiggy.

cool it, dad

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 11:00:15 GMT

Watch out for the Lion!

the influentious, hungry-for-fame, too-cool Boney M.
too cool. wayy too advanced in fashion sense. Love the courage, love the freestyle. Love the hair...Boney M opened up doors to disco nudity.

gotta love the gold crescent on hairy chest. Brilliant touch, that one.

this song makes me just wanna do the dance. *chop* *chop* *chop*

the man entry: the mantry

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 16:59:31 GMT

i feel like i owe it to the man.

i can relate more with mens' style maybe cuz of my natural inclination towards the androgyny. on one end you've got the laid-back, boyfriend, out-of-bed, raw, messy, effortless, rocker look. and on the other is the executive, clean, dapper and well-tailored/structured look that never fails to impress me.

whatever it is, men's fashion is often misunderstood as the simplest to pull off. to me, it just have to feel right, flow right. i'm intrigued when i see a guy who's got everything nicely put together. especially in malaysia. heheh.

so. first and foremost:
an homage to the "androgynous" man himself.
very sharp, till this very day.

so guys are often difficult to define a certain style but really easy to just mix and match. and any style can be timeless, if done right.

credit: garance dore
i picked him because of his fedoras.

credit: styleclicker
monochromatic never looked so macho. he's a stallion.

credit: (mostly) manila style
there's something about flip guys that draws me in; either that or it's just this guy and his attitude. when i say attitude, it's just his scratched-out black nail polish. ooouuuh, oozes out sexiness.

credit: street peeper, tokyo
i would date him.
jap guys and flip guys. while the previous oozes out sexiness, this guy caught my attention from his grandpa cardi. i dont know really, i think it's just his hair.

credit: berange claire
i picked him because of his cute puppy dog eyes.
that aside, i think it's the style this pic was taken and his non-attention to the camera that caught me.

credit: style.com
3.1 Philip Lim spring 09 ready-to-wear collection
it's amazing how the attention is just brought to his shoes, even if u start from his clean face. everything compliments nicely, the creamy green shirt underneath to the cream blazer, with the little red brooch on his left collar, moving down to his carefull-tailored sleeves (very nice!) ... moving down to his rolled-up slacks... and alas, his snakeskin loafers. you can tell that this outfit is carefully thought-out.

credit: style peeper; melbourne
earth tones always keep me grounded when it comes to colour schemes. it's almost the easiest to put together. why does he have his fist on his mouth? keeps me guessing. but truly stylish i'd say. plus points goes to the duffle bag.

credit: altamira nyc
this boy is just 15! too sharp for his age, i like.

bang!

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 19:31:48 GMT

im back with a bang

this (few) weeks in fashion:

everyone's surely heard about stam's fallout, or shall i say, fall from grace; on the prada ss09 show in paris. it wasnt just her who stole the show.. other models (Yulia the russian) fell too just as soon as she made her break at Jil Sander just before the prada catwalk. i guess the culprit, for once, is the shoe..not the model. these shoes are poorly built in all laws of Physics! and structure. here's a closer look.
images by fashion spot

speaking of ss09: what's up with the bare midriffs? i wont ever be able to pull that off, maybe in another lifetime, but not now definitely. tummy-exposure is never cool. except when you were small in a tiny bikini by the beach all innocent. and except when you're belly dancing. not for fashion, no.

ss09, again: balmain's show has my OH! and so does Valentino too. while the latter is more of a chic & formal wear, i'd take Balmain anytime, anyday. everyday. yaay.

left balmain, right valentino

enough of vintage this, vintage that!!

there's been a suffocating influx of local online boutiques shoving vintage clothing down our throats already. I'm always a big vintage fan forever, but personally, I'm getting turned off by the convenience of getting vintage through online boutiques. Now, I'm still guilty at buying them myself but i believe some has taken it a tad too far. What's the challenge in finding vintage, when it's so easy? What is vintage about it then? It should be a HUNT. one should feel so lucky as if she's just had quadruple orgasms and enjoying a tub of ice cream without getting any fatter (not necessarily at the same time). that should be the feeling. you can tell when some boutique owners do it for passion in a way that they actually pick the really vintage-worthy ones and sell them. in the whole concept of spreading the love. and that's fine. but some...is in just for the money. just because it's cheap because it's been worn before, and they get a huge profit cut out of it. so in that way, whatever's old is called vintage. what a shame.

so. am moving wayyyyy off that course, and embracing simple clean lines. In the spirit of spring09 readytowear. apparent in ysl, a.f vanderfrost, celine and the like.

left: celine, middle: a.f vanderfrost; right ysl.

a bit of vintage here, and there, off and on it's fine. but it get's REALLY old when you actually smell like a grandma, you know what im saying.

okay. so love her or hate her, in this particular outfit nina garcia (nina godzilla) looks pretty damn crisp. for those who know me, this outfit is so me. This is a lil example of simple and clean, yet vintage

more examples of clean.

images by icantteachyouhouwtodoit, pimpumpam, and the sartorialist/style.com

here are 2 girls who pull it off effortlessly: carolina engman of fashion squad., and Freja Beha.

images by fashion squad

freja on the right.
images from style.com, and fashion squad.

Friday, September 26, 2008

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 18:22:12 GMT

sometimes the weblog entry form is faulty so i couldnnt type in for the past couple of times.

i've been so occupied with work that i forgot it's the end of the month already! and my money is in already!

i saw the girls the other week (last Friday). catching up is so much fun, as cheesy as it sounds. i do miss Salmah's company though. I think I might have asked to buka puasa with her one too many times that it might pass off as irritating. I dont know. maybe it's just me being paranoid (as always). anyway, we caught over potylucked food- fiz's spagetti, fairuz's macaroni, my salad, sarah's kfc, and kuey teow goreng which her maid made (maid made hehe) and ayu's fruits, and muni's kek batik... it was good! sarah's always a superb host. and i got to play with Lola too which was another highlight...her kitty is just so adorable! and wayyyy too hyper. this raya, most, or probably half of them are going to beraya their husband's side. or prolly be occupied with their husband's side. and im like, man, is this what i'll be doing next year? not fretting, but.... i'm so gonna miss this! i'm so gonna miss being with my family for buka puasa... mom's whole-table full of food.. and i'm gonna miss buka puasa with friends. not that that's going to be over entirely, but you know, it will be different. and i dont think i could take on the chocolate cake job next year.. or maybe i could?

speaking of which, this year is the first year i "promoted around" my choc cake side business thing. so far it's been going great, just a lil tiring la. but that's expected..maybe i wont get to make that much money at all..we'll see.
anyway, if you all are wondering what exactly i do, well my family always bake the choc cake every year for Raya. now it's become more and more of my own thing since i've started to spread the news to my colleagues at work. so i'll be busy baking this weekend right till the morning of 1st raya.

nowhere to hide

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 18:24:17 GMT

i live in a web of lies.

so, anyway, countdown T minus 8 months. i'm freaking out as i speak!

so much planning, so little time. so little money.

***p/s: i know really when i'm getting married is when..... i start following strictly on my beauty regime.

Saturday, September 06, 2008

Sat, 06 Sep 2008 20:16:51 GMT

i think she's the ultimate of sexy.

pic from Garance Dore.

anyway. it's half past four and im still not asleep yet. im definitely moving backwards in my progress with the planning. things keep on changing. whereas over at work, it's not that sunny over there too. i've been contemplating whether is it fine to talk about work in this blog or not, because obviously, things that i'm about to talk about are just plain flat bitching. but we'll leave that for another time. I'd like to point out, though, that Over The Edge has got some concrete identity in terms of its layout design there. and also content-wise. I wonder if they face the same probs as we do? they are smaller than ours, probably it's easier to get along when there are lesser people. but that would mean more work. but that also depends since they have many contributors each issue. my point is, i guess the quality of the work really depends on the environment we're working in. im happy to say that the company is alright, i mean there are some annoying things here and there, but it's not like we're closing down or anything. the end result has so far been good, or relatively better, or so we've been told by our boss; but that doesnt mean that we're happy working. that's my whole point. i think, at some point, whenever that is, all of us will realize this and end up giving up because it's just not worth it. the fight is a losing battle. time to move on and move up.

id like to see myself in 5 years not being in the same shoes as I am now. (not literally).

moving on. in the quest of full-blossoming into a woman (i never cared that much to blog about it, let alone talk about it), i wonder if it is deemed as "vain" to pay extra attention on style and beauty? right, that is totally an obvious: a woman is almost absolutely vain at any given aspect. but to what point, can a woman talk about it and be taken seriously? if you're a fashion or a beauty writer, yeah of course you can because it is your profession. in all seriousness, though, writing about narcissistic, materialistic things can be a little flaky when compared to current events or global or political situations going on these days. being in the magazine industry, though, i cant help but feel that things are being categorized into these two: serious or temporary and flaky. and most of the time, we fall into the latter. its not wrong though, after all, we are a magazine, it's meant to be for light reading, light hearted stuff..materialistic happy things. i guess that's the balance that marie claire has been aiming for..if we could be that magazine that has real life features about real people, slotted in between skinny models and catalogues of SKIIs and pradas and holiday trips and luxurious living. but that's the magazine. personally, though, i'm nether of the two. I can appear as if i pay a lot of attention in style, but if you ask me really, i wouldnt know jack shit about dressing up and fashion. same with asking me about current events and opinions on social matters...i do have my own opinion, and mostly i speak up.. but im not that passionate enough to really be talking about it and everything. what i wouldnt mind to be classified as, though, is... as a person who loves cats. :D

jap netball tv show

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 16:18:52 GMT

somebody help me out on this:
remember when we were small (i was in primary) there was this japanese tv drama series about girls playing netball?
what was it called?!!

our engagement

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 16:54:10 GMT

fird's mom & i.

we managed to wiggle out of the worrying minds of our parents for prolonging the relationship any longer (5 years and counting) without any form of "ikatan", by getting engaged on july 19, 2008.

the whole procession was very traditional, to say the least. alhamdulillah no major hiccups, everything went well.
My family on mom's side still practice the Adat Pepatih so the discussions and addressing people were to be done very properly and all that. there were some things i was not aware of abt the Adat that was going on that day.. like with the kain batik-wrapped tepak sirih, the two engagement rings, and the whole "entering the Biduanda clan" deal.

the dulangs from fird (left) and me (right). dad & mom.

things that i was very glad for:
- we managed to bake and pack those muffins
- my baju in the end wasnt that bad at all after all i went through
- fird created all his hantarans and they were very creative and classy
- my bestest friends & cousins carried down the dulangs. ahahahahahha that was quite a highlight
- my relatives and friends came over to help out. that's priceless

and finally here's us. in our usual silly selves. fird paling selamba he wasnt even dressed for the occasion. :)

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 10:06:00 GMT

I still think of her. sometimes, I get flashes of how it was back then...taking care of her. I get flashbacks of her swollen paw due to being on drips too long, her face looking up to me in pain, her body just lying there weak.

every night I go to bed wanting to dream of being with her again, cuz I know i cant bring her back. I miss her terribly. there are times i just dont want to do anything but just think of her and cry.

ive been so depressed since she's gone.
i feel that i cant express this to anyone cuz they must be thinking that im crazy for still not getting over it. but i know if she was still around, she'd understand my pain.

cant wait to go to Heaven to see her again.